One day, I want to be able to sing in front of people. I want to be able to get up on a small stage, in a dimly lit room, and sing with my guitar.
I don’t know if I’m good at singing, I don’t know if people would enjoy it. I just want to do it.
I’d rather not do it in a place where people know me. Not in this town. I want to get away, I want to go somewhere; somewhere where no one knows who I am and just sing.
Singing is something I love to do. When I get stressed or I want to block something out, I shut myself in my room, get out my guitar and begin to play. It’s something I do to deal with things.
But if I were to sing in front of people, I would be judged on it- people would hear my voice and they would draw their own conclusions on it and, honestly, that terrifies me.
Whilst I dream of having the courage to do so one day, I’m also intimidated by the idea of actually acting on that courage.
I do want to do it one day. I’m just not completely ready yet.
I will be though, one day.